1~ My life has a new meaning...or so it feels...I still am a Child of God but I feel like I have grown in a way that makes me realize when I am going to start freaking out and calm myself enough to not! That is a big accompishment for me (I used to freak out alot) so I am very excited to be able to be in control!
2~Boys ....Do I need to say more? well A is a great guy, he is very Independent and Strong willed, makes me feel beautiful and wanted, makes me laugh and smile, he is needy-I can nuture him, I feel safe when he is around, he is Amazing!
3~My job is something that has always been steady thing in my life, but with my nurse on leave and vacation alot in the last 6 months, well I can't seem to keep things under control!
4~Everyone around me is pregnant and it scares me that it is contaigous...LMAO I know better but I feel like that sometimes!
5~ I miss having a safe place to curl up in and know that things will get better, that life won't always be spinning out of control, but I haven't had that in a while..I miss my mom...she is here but I am never there! Friday...maybe I will see if I can see her!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Lets try this again
1. My neice is acting out again because her mother is not in a steady relationship, which puts her in a state of misary. Ya so her daughter senses this and acts out cause she don't know what else to do. So my family get togethers are full of screams and crys and time-outs. Which puts everyone on edge and in bad moods.
2. T hasn't talked to me about much lately which means only two things. 1. its something that will upset me and she don't like confrontation. or 2. I have lost trust with her because I am friends with B.
3. speaking of B ... B has been a ball of fun these days, he is keeping things from me which makes him easy to set off. He has been hanging out with T alot...alot alot so that makes me think he is rethinking his divorce for the sake of loneliness....I mean if you are the one who said I'm done then what else makes you want them back. SO this makes me wonder what he sees in T she gives it for free...but who wants free....you know that its not much cause hello its FREE...and he gets upset with her when they hang out ...So what I know could be what T wants me to know...which could be not the whole truth.
4. Netflix is my one of new fav things....well not quite new but anyways I got Sisterhood of the traveling pants 2. Ya much better then alot of the sequels I have seen resently. I also got Wanted...also a good movie.
5. My roomie is moving out in a week,,,back to little ol' me in a 3 bedroom house. grrr....I am not one who enjoys emptiness unless I create it ....or silence for that matter....which makes me think that I might have to work on getting a boy because I then can cook for more then just me...and have someone to watch movies with. I am gonna work on that meet new people be friendly when going places and try really hard to get some new people in my life.
6. Keep writing...keeping things fresh and new in my life...and find a new good book to read maybe a trip to library since funds are not an option to buy things now...See $5...lol
well it was nice to write again....ttyl
2. T hasn't talked to me about much lately which means only two things. 1. its something that will upset me and she don't like confrontation. or 2. I have lost trust with her because I am friends with B.
3. speaking of B ... B has been a ball of fun these days, he is keeping things from me which makes him easy to set off. He has been hanging out with T alot...alot alot so that makes me think he is rethinking his divorce for the sake of loneliness....I mean if you are the one who said I'm done then what else makes you want them back. SO this makes me wonder what he sees in T she gives it for free...but who wants free....you know that its not much cause hello its FREE...and he gets upset with her when they hang out ...So what I know could be what T wants me to know...which could be not the whole truth.
4. Netflix is my one of new fav things....well not quite new but anyways I got Sisterhood of the traveling pants 2. Ya much better then alot of the sequels I have seen resently. I also got Wanted...also a good movie.
5. My roomie is moving out in a week,,,back to little ol' me in a 3 bedroom house. grrr....I am not one who enjoys emptiness unless I create it ....or silence for that matter....which makes me think that I might have to work on getting a boy because I then can cook for more then just me...and have someone to watch movies with. I am gonna work on that meet new people be friendly when going places and try really hard to get some new people in my life.
6. Keep writing...keeping things fresh and new in my life...and find a new good book to read maybe a trip to library since funds are not an option to buy things now...See $5...lol
well it was nice to write again....ttyl
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